Syafeeqa (:

2011-04-09T20:15:00.002+08:00

Things have been hard for me lately.

Sitting by the window,

Looking up in the sky,

Reminisce the past,

Looking far ahead,

Its all just dead.

Theres no point of me blogging anymore.Good bye empty harsh world.

2011-03-30T02:21:00.004+08:00

I know there was other girls before me. I know I wasn’t your first love. I know I wasn’t the first to call you mine. I know that you’ve called other girls baby or babe before. I know that I wasn’t your first kiss. But all I want is to be the last girl you’d ever be with, the last one that you’d love, the last one to call you mine, the last one you’d call baby or babe and the last one to ever kiss you.

2011-03-29T00:41:00.001+08:00

Lately things have been a little crazy
flippin out and buggin on my baby
god only knows just what i would be
If i didn't have you here loving me I
Wake up all hours of the night when u are away
crack a smile every time that you're on my brain
me without you baby just ain't right
So if i lose you how will i survive

I know sometimes you feel you're battling an army just to love me more
trust me baby imma do u better
Cause i can't lose the one thing that holds me together he's my core
Someone i can call on forever

Cause i know i was so blessed to find you
I'ma show, prove and do my best to please you
Pull you together when you feel that you're about to fall apart
make up for the lovin that i never gave before
You're the only thing that makes sense in my life
If we fight i'm gonna make it all right
You should know that i'm in love with you ain't ever gonna leave
don't want no one else but you cause you're my everything

2011-03-28T02:08:00.008+08:00

its been ages since i wrote down on my blog.haha.there's no point to it anyway, no one is going to read about it.but somehow this blog has been a place where i normally pour my feelings rather than to "people" that doesnt care.

Lately, 2011 is a good start.hahaaaaa. Now than i wana talk about 2011. Not too late for anything right.haha. School is all good, friends are almost my kind of people.Hmmm. preety much mundane huh?

As usual family issues will never ever be alright.NEVER. Nothing to talk about it anyway.Sigh.As usual the same old shits going around.FML.

Hmmmmm. Years pass,ive grown older more burden on these shoulders. What can i say am reaching adult hood soon anyway. Ive been telling myself stay strong no matter what. Doesnt mean i cried im a loser or im weak, its a way i let it all out to feel stress free. Am i right? Oh we

ll these are all parts and parcels of life.......

Lately, my time has been all about this special someone. A person who i went through lotsa obstacle be it bad or good. Its been a year since both of us been close to each other. Every minute,every second being with me is just a blissful moment i had. No words can describe how he has put an impact in my life this whole 1 year knowing him. (: Nothing can describe how much im falling in love with him now . <3

i love you sweetheart <3

2010-07-23T00:45:00.002+08:00

Not myself again i guess.

Whenever i lay back and just chilling down this uneasy feeling struck me by. I hate it so so much.Damn!

Why do I keep on asking myself the same old things when i myself had promised not to swear ever to think or talk about it.Shit happens I guess. What's the issue now feeqa??!! Tears running down those cheeks of mine again. Why should I anyway right. I guess i cant control my own feelings over again.

I thank god for giving me the strengths . Alhamdullillah. Ibu and myself are back to normal. And to you, i'm glad that things are back to normal on your side. (:

To think again, friends come and go easily.Sheesh, I'm saying the same old stuff again. ENOUGH!

To whoever i've been giving advise to, please think about it. I am just here to comfort, help out and being a friend that I should be. If those advise didnt work out, I guess you are just not trying hard enough. Get a grip and think about it. There's no point of giving advise if you yourself not giving yourself a chance. Do it,not say it. Enough. Urgh!

lies...lies...lies....

2010-07-12T18:11:00.002+08:00

In life there will always be ups and downs. Do you agree?

never ending

2010-06-30T00:21:00.003+08:00

Look at the time its past my bed time.I should be tucking myself into bed right now due to work later on in the morning.So, just a quick update for now.

Just now was such a great time with you and the rest of your family. I had a great time,really I do. I hope I can spent those time with you and the rest of your family again sometime. You make my day today.(:

Saturday,please come fast.I can't wait! (((:

Next three days going to work as per normal.Hate this.Nevermind Feeqa, think about the money.((:

Alright,nights then. Starting to miss you already. (;

bright smile.......

2010-06-27T15:45:00.001+08:00

I sometimes find I'm drifting
Through this life without effect;
I often wonder if I'm truly
Worth what I've been blessed.
I search through days that have been hard,
To try to understand,
The many trials that I have known,
The life that I have had.
You see me in my daily grind,
So confident and strong;
Yet when I am alone, I question
Just where I belong.
I often try too hard I find,
To analyze and guess,
To scrutinize, investigate
My life I will confess.
For somewhere deeper, there must be
Some meaning to this life,
Some way to make a difference,
Give a reason for this strife.
Is there some hidden meaning?
Some agenda to be found?
A greater purpose waiting
If I care to hang around?
It teases and it taunts me,
Always slightly out of sight;
A hazy vision out of reach,
Where darkness hides the light.
I struggle to bring clarity
To what awaits me there,
And yet this weak illusion
Always fades before my stare.
It seems the harder that I try,
To focus through the haze,
Just serves to add more questions,
Through my endless, tired gaze.
Perhaps I'm trying just too hard,
To understand it all,
For can we ever truly know
Just what we have in store?
Each incident, each moment passed,
Just adds upon the next,
But in the end, will I find truth ...
Or will I be perplexed?
Perhaps I make it harder
Than it has to be sometimes,
But will my searching bring to me
My meaning over time?
Or will it leave me broken,
And confused as I feel now,
While questions bring no solitude,
To this, my wrinkled brow.

drifting.....

2010-06-26T01:42:00.005+08:00

Wow. Its like a year since i blog.Feeling really awkward.Haha.

Nothing particular to say right now.Preety much mundane for a Friday night.Blog song still my favourite.Random.-.-

Just summing up my feelings right now. Ermmm. CONFUSED! ok done. How i wish i could talk to someone right now. -.-

silent stars

2009-08-11T16:41:00.003+08:00

Comprehend, if you can.

Attention from the mindless, from the heartless. I only judge after I evaluate, loathe after love, ignore the ignorant . The dead will only be dead, when the spirit is seperated from the soul.Therefore the flower is still surviving as it does not have a spirit,only fallen petals.

There's a mirror,for the unknown to look and to be known.But then the mirror is often foreseen thus the unknown chose to look through it and saw the dancing fairy.Awesome says the heart,but the mind contradicts the display.As the fairy kept dancing, it's not the compliment heard.Probably the unknown has forgotten,the mirror is still in a thousand years await.To be seen.Then judged.

The throne now it's my seat.Hey servant, the throne,don't sit on it.You sat long enough,it is not cheap.No,it is not cheap! Now the queen is talking,you be my slave.Don't you dare overrule,cos it's my say.Go crawl,crawl down the hell alone.Don't drag the queen into it, cos it's your sin,your sin in dawn.Face God.can you?! No,you can't,cos you can't even wake the unknown.So now go, crawl down to hell alone!

So the ignorant came into play.Pasting a smile,painting a laughter then wash it away.The bliss is not ignorant,for happiness and joy is not new.Only a few words were left in the cupboard.Blessings are without you.

labels : The mind being manipulative,the heart straight as a runway.

2009-08-08T00:03:00.003+08:00

Thank you.

Anyway mind the picture above course some "ALLERGIES" is being a pests.

ohh,ohh.Wishing to see and hear the dedication since it was canceled last minute.Would it be possible?

labels : promises

2009-08-05T17:35:00.002+08:00

It is undeniable that truth has been out and being told.Never to think that it is painful when reminisce it back.Patience has been kept in this heart after years gone by.Utterly disappointed hearing and undergoing those truth that has been kept and never been said before.Hanged by the bridge to continue on the journey to choose which way to go.Still hanged in confusion.

Those "ALLERGIES" going around never to stop its "GERMS" from spreading,disturbing or hunt its victims.Never to make "PEACE" not letting others to have a "HEALTHY" life. Didn't have a heart to let "PEACE" came around.Why cant those "ALLERGIES" stay by their own clan and never exist in these world.

labels : Enlightened the Candle back.

2009-08-02T15:28:00.006+08:00

I am just confused right now.Why is everything seems to be chaotic ? Why is everything seems to be not happy for me? Why must I go through this where as I have done alot of great things but it seems that it wasn't being appreciated. I am confused now,confused. I thought you have threw it away but I guess not, after the stories I've got, both the negative and positive and the truth and lies too. Yes, I will wait for you til you confronted me. Why now? Why now then you felt that way towards me ? Why wasn't it the time when we can sort it in a matured ways? Why now? I am confused.Wait, I rather say, I am having mix feelings.

Why am I writing all these down? Well, I myself have no answers to that. If you feel that I am referring to you than I guess you start thinking why am I writing all these down.

Why cant I have new friends ? I thought that is what you want me to do all this while? Get more friends you've said, and I did, but you seems unhappy for me. Why? Aren't you happy for me? When you have a new friend I just kept in my heart that you will be happy.I gave all the happiness you want already but I ignored my happiness for you.I received the stories that you tell to someone, and I kept thinking about it. Doesn't it sounded the same when I tried to treat you nicely last time and you ignored me totally? Doesn't it sounded the same for my part? I guess we will have a talk one day.No worries,since you felt something is wrong than,I will wait for you to confronted me. I guess now you know who am referring to. Lastly, you didnt know how much pain I've gone through just for the sake of you. P.S : I am not angry,just confused.

*blog song referring to you*

labels : confused-mix feelings, YOU

2009-07-30T11:34:00.004+08:00

don't wish to talk about it.hopeless,yet I still have my love ones by my side. :)))

*damn,3 days on mc.shoot.*

labels : ridiculous

monday mundane???NO!!

2009-07-27T22:12:00.017+08:00

be ready for tons of pictures!!!!

firstly, blogger is getting on my nerve.Monday mundane? I dont think so. I thought my day will be a darn boring day because of what had happened to my beloved BFF in class just now.Well, if Syafiqah is around you will be all fine babe. I love you. Stay strong,like you always say. Forget about what had happened and I dont want you to be ending up like a toy. You have always been there for me and now I am here for you.Anytime,anywhere I'll try my best to be there for you.

Anyhoo, after school both of us decided to have our revision in the library. Half way through we ending up taking pictures using my webcam. I had fun with my BFF and I hope she felt much,much better.I told you,if Syafiqah is around you will never find a time that you are sad. *winks.We had our late dinner over at Burger King with Wawan tagging with us. The whole entire Burger King was filled with our loud laughing voices.Oh, not to forget,we thanked Burger King for switching on all our favourite songs when we were having our dinner.Especially Hush Hush,right Aqila?? Haha. Anyhoo,we,both bought ourself a cardigan.Hehe.Twins.*winks. I had a great time with my BFF.

Now, I am having stomach cramps for the past 2 straight days.I have the same pain that I had 3 months ago.I hope its not. I felt its because of the late dinner I had on Sunday night. If these goes on maybe tomorrow I wont be coming to school and ofcourse I have to seek the doctor.

About my previous post, I thinked I wrote it preety clear to let people know what is going around the world.Yes,it is malay language but if you really wants to know what I really meant, try figuring it out yourself.I will talk more about it later. Now I really need to rest.

labels : redha.

Racial Harmony.

2009-07-26T16:30:00.006+08:00

racial harmony in school was a not as great as the past years that I thought it would be.Anyhoo,atlast this year i wore something different than the past year.Pictures are most up in facebook while some are not suppose to be exposed because of some reasons.Alright,let me just say school has been preety fine lately.

weekends.let me put it this way.I have been spending time with fun people and ofcourse my lovely sisters :)))).Now I would like to say something that is facts.It will be in malay language.Sorry if you cant understand course I find it,its the fact and really makes me think.To whom who felt the pinched thats your problem.

"Kenapa lelaki yang mempunyai 9 akal masih tewas apabila digoda oleh perempuan?-Sebab perempuan merupakan penggoda 'professional'.Lihat fakta sejarah dari Al-Quran atau di sekeliling kita.-Iblis tidak dapat menggoda Nabi Adam supaya makan buah larangan.Tetapi apabila Siti Hawa memujuk Nabi Adam,baru Nabi Adam mahu makan buah itu.-Anak Nabi Adam bergaduh kerana berebutkan perempuan.-Nabi Yahya di bunuh kerana di fitnah perempuan.-Hang Tuah dan Hang Jebat bergaduh kerana perempuan.-Ramai lelaki pergi ke kelab dangdut kerana tarikkan perempuan G.R.O. Orang lelaki beristeri lebih daripada 1 kerana godaan perenpuan. -Banyak wang lelaki habis begitu sahaja kerana perempuan.Banyak sebab-sebabnya yang di lakukan oleh seorang lelaki kerana godaan perempuan.

Apakah rahsia-rahsia yang terpendam di lubuk hati wanita? Mengapakah tindak tanduk wanita sukar di fahami oleh seorang lelaki? Benarkah wanita tidak begitu senang apabila hidup bersama wanita? Apakah yang diharapkan oleh seorang wanita dari seorang lelaki? Apakah yang membahagiakan wanita di mana hal ini selalunya diambil ringan oleh lelaki? Bolehkah seorang wanita mengahwini lelaki tampa rasa cinta? Wanitalah yang lebih mudah membaca hati budi lelaki sedangkan lelaki selalunya membuat tanggapan yang meleset mengenai mereka"

thats all I wish to say.Its alright if you cant understand.I started to thinked like this when I found out something which is abruptly dissapointing after all this years.I cant do anything now but only pray to God for what had happened.May god seeked my forgiveness and to that particular person,you will one day felt the pain.Astagfirullahalazim.Amin.

Labels : living the past years in lies.

school days. :)

2009-07-21T15:02:00.014+08:00

caught in the act talking and messaging to....Baby Hong Da ;))

Lesson was kind of dry today and I was almost late for school.I was totally worn out because of laughter's after laughter's in class.Lessons was draggy and sleepy for the first half of the day.Anyway, I didn't regret coming to school today course I really laugh my *** of the entire day.My favourite part of the day was when my Baby Hong Da and Boobie Aqila made freaking-ly idiotic jokes that made the whole library like a hawker centre.Hahs.Well,we snaps quite number of pictures especially me.Thanks again Aqila,for those nonsensical photo's of me! You better not post it in your blog or I'll kill you!! Ahahas.Oh,as per normal,Aircho will never fail to make the whole class laugh with his dancing skills with our dearest down syndrome Han Yue.We called it the "Humpty-Dump" dance.Ahahas.Anyhoo, school was alright for me even though some things aroused.I don't wished to say it down here.Let me just say,I'm at a state of confusion.sheesh!

Daddy is coming back to Singapore today.YAY! I miss him alot.Ahas.He is the best.He has been away for business trips and its hard for me to meet him.Anyways,I cant wait for those CASH that he said he wants to give.I'M A SPOILT BRAT I KNOW.Ahas.What can I say, I'm Daddy's one and only expensive baby girl.*winks.

To "MR H" : I cant answered those question you've asked and those words you've said to me for the past two days.I do talk to you as per normal.No worries as I'll be here to talk and joke around with you like we used to.I hope what you've said is true and I (insert word).

labels : your words is playing with my mind.

2009-07-20T15:13:00.007+08:00

i love you BF!

I cant believe that I'm going to say this ;" i had a great time in school today!!". It seems that quite number of people are happy when they saw me back in school after so long of not attending school.I miss my BF,Aqila most! She will never fail to make my day a splendid one.Love ya Bobbie!! Anyways,I have been busy with school assignments and I didn't manage to update my blog.Well, I think I will be probably update most about school work.As u can see the pictures above are my fellow lovely classmates.I really had a great time during p.e lesson as I kept on making lame jokes til all of us sweat.Instead of playing badminton,Aqila and myself made lame jokes and took funny pictures.I was being paparized!! Damn you Aqila.I wont post the picture !! Oh,today was the class photo session and it was awesome!!! I love my classmates!! Anyhoo, I felt weird because of something.Never mind,lets put that a side.Lets summarise my day in school today.It was a great day!!!!!! haha.lame.I'll update more soon.Now I want to update my private blog.hehe.

*in love with blog song.*winks

labels: something fishy,weird.

2009-07-19T05:50:00.002+08:00

Will be back preety soon. :)))))

The WeekENdssss

2009-06-22T12:32:00.007+08:00

The rest of the pictures are uploaded in PRIVATE BLOG & FACEBOOK in PRIVATE MODE for PRIVACY PURPOSES.Sorry.

YEaaahhhh!!! Laptop finally fixed people!! Thanks to my Daddy!!! Love You Daddy!!

Hey,hey. Finally,I'm blogging.I don't know where should I start. Well,my laptop was down for weeks.Dad send it for servicing.Weeks again I had to wait.I had to borrowed my friends laptop or sometimes sneak in to my brothers room for his Mac book.That if he left it at home.Now, laptop is all fixed and I am really happy.Haha.

Anyway, all my past weekends were alright. Oh,my weekdays is a busy one still except for today. I really have to rest at home because I am having an upset tummy and a slight migraine.Maybe because of the long day yesterday I had with Baby.Yesterday we went out for his belated birthday celebration. I guess its a relaxing and (insert word) time.Hehe.Alright,alright, I just summarise what has been happening lately.

12 June 2009

Had my tuition, headed out by myself to find my things and off to Jurong Point to have dinner with Baby,Azlan and Fauzi over at Pizza Hut. Well,that night was a (insert word). Haha.Its between me and Baby.Privacy. *wink*

13 June 2009

Well,every Saturdays I will always be out but on these particular day,I didn't went out.Believe it or not right? Haha.Me staying at home on a Saturday.WOW! I did had a great time at home because Baby came over to accompanied me at home since he himself had no plans also on that day.It was really funny when he came over.Most of the time,he was sleeping whereas I watched my tv. Since we were bored, we walked around my park area and we came across with "Kuda Kepang" showcase. Let me tell you, Baby had the wrong idea about "Kuda Kepang" and "Dikir Barat". Hahah.It was funny really.By the look of his face,seriously it was funny.Haha. Headed home after watching the "Kuda Kepang".

14 June 2009

Street fest competition was held at Youth Park.Went there with beloved Nutz Crew. Well I am too lazy too upload all the pictures down here. Let me just say, keep it as memories alright. I need not need to show off all the pictures right. Anyway,I didn't catched the last part of the competition course I was busy walking around town,shopping.Hehe.

20 June 2009

I made a LAST MINUTE CHANGES to my PLANS to go to my babies, Funky Groove Nutz performance over at Heren.Its been quite sometime since I watched them performed.As always they did great. Basically on this Saturday I spent my day with them.Love you guys!

21 June 2009

First and foremost, HAPPY SWEET 6TEEN BABY SISTA,NADYRA!!! I need not need to say all out down here.I disturb you quite alot before and during your birthday day.Ahaha. I hope you like the present!!! Heheh. On this day also I went out with Baby to spent his belated birthday celebration. Surprised him over at his place.When I called him he was still in bed.Ahaha. Gave him his presents and he went off to get changed. Let me summarise the day.We had ( insert word ) time together. You know,I know right Baby. Headed to Bboy Champ after that. Reached home and we webcam.Ahaha.He showed me the presents I bought for him.Ahaha.Dope or what right Baby.Ahah. Alright,the pictures above are some of the pictures taken on this day.The rest are post on facebook but on PRIVATE mode. Its Baby's and my PRIVACY. Only some people can see it. Sorry.

22 June 2009

As for today, I rest at home.Sick. I am still waiting for Daddy to give some cash to go to the clinic if i want to.I still have my medication still.Alright I don't know whether want to seek a doctor.Fickle minded me! Ahaha. Alright that's enough for now.I think I write quite enough to entertain you people.Til next time.

Lastly all the best for Abang,Kak Syakira and Baby for Singapore Idol audition 2 Tomorrow!!!

Thank you Allah.

precious people...

2009-06-09T01:06:00.008+08:00

Morning again. Look at the time and I am still quite awake.I cant sleep as I have been thinking quite alot.

Above is a combination video of Freekzy Nutz and Lil Nutz at Genting Highlands.We didn't expect to win as we just take it as an experience.Let me tell you,we really had fun down there.Like super duper fun together. :DD . The bonding between us were very tight.I still remembered the time when we were being punished because of some lame mistake we did together.Haha.I remember how our teacher in charge were quite pissed with us.Nonetheless its an experience for us there.The weather,the people,the food and the place was splendid! Except that some of us cant bare the cold weather and were caught with a fever and not forgetting me, i had an attacked of chest pain.Thank god some of us fall ill after the competition day.It may be due to over powered of energy on stage or it is because of the cold weather.I remembered on day one everyone was really in shocked of the place because they had never been there before.We were very ''jakon" haha.Our rooms were located side by side except for 3 of them who were opposite side.Since all of us were "jakon",we played a phone pranked to every room including our teachers.Haha.It was really hilarious as some of us were so dumb to believe who's on the line.Never mind if you people cant understand.hehe.We went shopping together,eat in the same table together every single meal in a day and lots more.We were super close like brothers and sisters.Our tight bonding cant be replaced with anything. Not forgetting the time when our teacher treat us on late night movie.The movie was boring!!! Seriously!! Some of us were falling asleep and some just annoyed each other to stay awake.It was damn hilarious!! Everyone was exhausted on that day,I couldn't recall why.Haha.In the theatre we were quite playful.Haha.Irritating kids.All I could say that we had so,so much fun there.Lots of audience loves our performance so,so much we got an invitation to perform for an event on the 3rd day and for the closing item on the last day.We were honoured to perform for them and our results was not what we expect it to be,GOLD.Quite shocking as the rest of the competitor were all about contemporary,ballet and other sorts of genre from different countries.We were the only Hip Hop team from Singapore.What a total shocked we were.Besides that we were very happy and we really brought glory to Singapore,School and OUR NUTZ CREW!!! It was not a waste for being there.Everything has an end to it right.On the last day everyone cried as we will be missing each and everyone.It is simply because of the bonding we had.No one understand other than ourselves.Let me emphasise on these.NO ONE UNDERSTAND OUR BONDING WHEN WE WERE THERE!! All I could say is that all of us had a tight bonding together.We shared tears of joy together.Freekzy Nutz and Lil Nutz are my brothers and sisters whom I cherish most.We are the first ever batch of "the Nutz".Without all of them there wont be even one "Nutz" family.I really miss all the fun we had down there.As for now everyone of us is moving forward to catch up in life.How I wish I can turn back time when we were there.I guess if all of us were to seat and chat together one day,we were all be laughing our ass of talking about our time in Genting Highland.

AZLAN,ADAM,FAUZI,ISKANDAR,BABY(ALIF), IZZA,SHAHIDAH,ATYRA,DIANA,MURNI,RIZA,NADYRA.I MISS ALL OF YOU.When can we dance together again,practice together again ,play H-I-P hip hop game again,chop-chilly-chop game again,007-bang game again,who-what-huh game again,play fun fair again,watch late night movie again,and more again?? I really cherish all of you guys alot even though I didn't show it but you people are the important people in my life.Love you guys so so much.

As for now,I can see that others are tearing us apart.Pushing us away from being together.Different people are coming into our life and we are now like forgetting each other.Nonetheless,Once a Nutzcrew always a Nutzcrew.

No one will ever understand our tight bonding there,NO ONE! Except us.I'll end my Genting story by saying Freekzy Nutz and Lil Nutz,I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!

Secondly,Mohammad Alif Bin Rais,Thank you for being in my life throughout the years.I thanked you for being the bestest person in my life.I love you too.I adore you so,so much.There is nothing can replace my love towards you.You are simply the BEST! I LOVE YOU. I really took your words seriously on 1st June 09.You know what you've said to me right babyboy and you promised too. :) You know what I mean. :) I love you! This maybe a short post for you but you know no words can describe my love towards you.Loving you so,so much. :)

sincerely, babyaircho.
(shredding a tear for my precious people)

a quick update

2009-06-08T02:40:00.005+08:00

i wish mama & papa were in the portrait too.

(they are the darlings whom helped me out for the surprise party :)

Morning.Look at the time now and I am still up.Go figure why.I'm here to make a quick update before my laptop is down again.

5 June 09

Baby is another year older.Party was a great and a smooth one.I really thanked every single one of you who came down for the party.Thanks so,so much. Its baby's first ever birthday surprise.Through out the years, he has never ever had a surprise party.So this year is such a wonderful one.I can see from his expression but 2 important person in his life didn't showed up of some reasons and I can know baby is kind of disappointed.Anyway,party was great. Special thanked to Mama and Abang and not forgetting my beloved mum.Thank you ibu for cooking Baby's favourite "Kicap Noodle".haha

At night,after the party,some of us went for abang's singing performance at PS.Even though abang didn't make it to the next round,he was awesome on stage.I melted when he sang Me and Mrs jones.Haha.I don't know why.Abang! You took the phone I wanted! Not fair! Haha.We camp out at The Cathay for Singapore Idol.

6 June 09

The day of Singapore Idol's audition round.I was really tired of my sleepless night.Anyway,Abang,Baby and Kak Syakira get through to the next round.Congrats sayangs! Their audition ends at around 3 to 4 plus.Headed home straight with Abang and Baby.I rushed home to get ready for my cousins birthday chalet at "i don't know where" I just hailed a cab to the address given.Seriously I was really worn out.I gave my greetings to all those whom were at the chalet and of I went to the room and had my sleep.Haha.Too tired to celebrate.Total of 3 days straight I didn't have a proper sleep.Went home around 2 am.

7 June 09

I really rest myself at home in the morning and afternoon.Evening I went for some birthday party again.Alot of people invited me for birthday party.I went for all as they had invited me and it wouldn't be nice if I wouldn't come.So I was rushing to get from one place to another.After all the parties, I went down at my neighbouring estate to support Baby,Iskandar and Riza for their International Idol finals.Congrats Isk and Riza for clinching 2nd place and Baby for clinching the 3rd place.Proud of you guys.You guys really make The Nutz Crew proud.

8 June 09

Today I have an open house over at Singapore Poly to attend to.I still have yet to decide whether to go.I am so,so worn out.It is under school so I really have to think about it.If i were to go,I hope it will be a great one.I still need my rest today,seriously.

That's all I had to share.Oh ya. 1st June 09!! Something sweet and happy thing happen between me and baby.I wont want to elaborate more.Go figure.Haha.(more elaboration in my 3rd private blog.haha.) I need my rest now. Alright. and Baby, I LOVE YOU TOO!! HUGGIES!! MUACKZ!! XD

2009-05-25T15:57:00.003+08:00

Alright.How was my weekend? Basically I had a great time, especially yesterday.Saturday went to watched Serenade and Sheeq performance at SAM,Glass Hall.It was my first ever time to go to this kind of event.Nonetheless,it was a great experience being there looking at local talents.Serenade and Sheeq were great.On top of that,Abang were great too.I went to BOTY after their performance.Supposing,me, Serenade,Deeranae,Lil Dope and Sheeq were suppose to go together but Serenade,Dee and Sheeq stayed on to have a photoshoot,if I ain't wrong.Lil Dope took Abang Ca's bike where as me took Abang's car since he wants to send me there and of course to be there too.I only got to catch the last battle.How sad,right.Haha.Hang around with my Nutzcrew at Vivo's rooftop and off we went home.Oh,and again we have to squeeze into Abang's car as per normal to get home.As usual,baby have to carry me on his lap and Azlan or sometimes Fauzie have to carry Nadyra on the lap.Hehe.On the speakers and again they sang loudly in the car like they always do.Funny! I love my Nutzcrew! Bunch of crazy people!Ha ha.

Sunday,which is yesterday,Nutzcrew,had their own performances.My juniors,Funky Nutz,Groovy Nutz and Phat Nutz have their performance at Nanyang Hard Court in the morning but I didnt came because of some reasons.Sorry my little ones.I'll make it up to all of you alright.Anyway your Abang Alif was there on behalf of me.Hehe.In the evening the rest of the Nutzcrew,which is Freezky Nutz and Lil Nutz had a competition at City Harvest Church which is like at our neighbourhood area.Oh,don't asked why it is held in a church.I,myself had no idea.It was great.Adam,Alif,Azlan went for Solo.Iskandar and Riza went for duo me and Nadyra also went for duo.Oh not to forget Abang,sing.The competition were alright,more to singing than dancing.Anyway results still not up yet.I am still waiting for the email.Insyaallah,all of us get through,aite Nutzcrew!ha ha.To add more of my fun day,me and baby chatted on the phone till 3am.Hehe.You know right baby. *wink2*

As I had said my weekends was great.I had such a good time with all my lovelies,Nutzcrew,Baby and the baby girls.

As for today marks the start of my intensive Mother Tongue Programme.I was damn sleepy because of the long night call I had with baby the night before but thanked god I manage to finish and do it smoothly.Baby send me home after the programme as I was not feeling well.We talked a lot instead of me resting in bed.haha.You know what I mean right baby.*wink2* ha ha.Around 2.45pm we headed out to my central to have lunch together.As usual,we ate at Makan Shiok as it is baby so called favourite place to eat.We headed home after that and now here am blogging.Alright baby wants me to rest now.Aite.Pictures upload soon.

2009-05-22T13:31:00.002+08:00

hello,hello. (: A quick update here.This weekdays had been preety mundane.School as per normal.I have a good time with baby during school hours especially tuesday.hehe.You know what I mean right baby.Tuesday was a short day so me and baby went for a walk at a park nearby his house after lesson,we chilled and have our time together.I went back home around 3 to have a rest course during that night I had something on.Baby text me as he wants to bring me out for an early dinner before going for his practice.Thank you for the food,aight.We headed to his practice area and he started teaching me choreography and "ehem2".hehe.Its been quite sometime since I do a choreography.Basically both of us had practice on that night.Alright as for the rest of the days,it's preety much the same routine.Alright,I am preety shagged right now.Can't wait for saturday and especially sunday!! wee.

a long post

2009-05-11T21:23:00.004+08:00

First and foremost,I thanked Allah for creating me the way I am.I am glad that I was born just fine.Thank you Allah for making me just fine from the tip of my head to the tip of my toe.Be it my features and be it my character,thank you for everything YOU have made me Allah.I realise a lot that without Allah these earth will not exist.Since there is still time for me to ask for forgiveness,I will always seek for HIS help and HIS blessing.Thank you Allah.Allah is in my heart every minute and second.

1st & 2nd May 2009.This day is the best day for me.(smiling).Well i get to spent my time wisely with all my love ones.

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1st May.I spent the whole day with my babysista Nadyra , niggerettes Lil dope & kak Serenade.We decided to study in the afternoon and watch movie at night.It was just a great day with them.Meet up with Kak Serenade after our late movie and off we go to my crib for a sleepover except for Nadyra.Well Nadyra meet up with Ahmad Shazwan to study instead of following us.heh.The three of us have some talks.Kak Serenade have a long talk with me in the kitchen.Thank you kak for the advise that you've given me.Basically the night is not that young for us so we went to sleep at around 4am.I have to sleep early as the next day I am going out with aircho baby.(smileeee)

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2nd May.I have a great day with both aircho baby and some of the Nutz Crew seniors. Get up early to meet up with aircho baby and what a coincidence both of us were wearing blue.heh.I have such a great time with him in the movie theatre,baby cant stop disturbing me and "ehem".(for us to know for you to find out)hehe.Oh,we watch X-Men Wolverine Origin.The show was great.No regrets watching.Actually after movie we decided to play bowling but baby wasn't in the mood for bowling so we head straight for our early dinner at Popeye restaurant at Singapore Flyers.We sat by the sea near the Singapore flyers after having our meal.We have "our time" together there.We have great time together basically.I wont elaborate more about us course is just too long and too fun to talk about it.heh.I love us. :DDDD

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We headed to meet up with the rest of the Nutz Crew seniors at Y.P to support our Nutz Crew brother,Adam, for his K.O night competition.Adam,you did great!! The competition was great too.I was the only girl there.Pfft.(taik kambing to Nadyra for coming late with Abang Din & they have to watch from outside).While waiting for our turn to get into the competition,Abang cant stop making a lot of jokes.hahaha.Eventhough I was the only girl there, baby cant stop making me smile.heh. After the competition,meet up with the rest whom was outside,Nadyra,Abang Jamyl,Abang Din,Kak Reela, Lil Dope and Kak Sara.We chat a lil bit and off we go to buy our late night movie ticket.Abang Jamyl decided to catch a movie, so he ask us to tag along.Basically,all the Nutz Crew seniors tag along.We watch Friday The 13th(M18). For the first time Nadyra,baby and me get to pass through.Ahaha.It was funny when we have to couple up with the big guys to become our so call "boyfriend" to pass through.heheh.The show was so gory till me and Nadyra cant stop closing our eyes and jerking ourselves throughout the show.ahaha.Baby was my victim.Ahaha.I cant stop scratching his "babat" whenever the shocking scene came.Sorry baby.I love you.hehe.Alright,the show was alright.

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After the movie,it was around 2am,we chilled outside The Cathay for a moment.We waited for Adam to send his Gf to Im not sure where.While waiting, baby ask me to accompany him to a nearby toilet.Heh.Baby you know,I know what happen right.heheh.I like.(smileee). After waiting for Adam we went to board Abg's car.It was so squeezy till i have to seat on baby's lap and Nadyra on Zie's lap.Ahaha.It was funny on the way to The Cathay and back home whereby Zie keep on singing Abg's song very loudly in a funny way.Ahaha.I have so,so much fun in the car.

I really spent my time wisely and spent it happily with my lovely Nutz Crew Seniors and niggerettes during the weekends.(smileee)

Baby really makes my day.

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Alright now Im just updating for what has been going on lately.I am busy with my preparation for O's.Basically I will be studying most on my weekends.Nomore having fun or chilling out till late night that much.I have to manage my time properly.I want to excel in my studies.That is for my studies.

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Now,my health, I have been sick few weeks ago.I missed school for almost 2 weeks.Nonetheless,baby and my boobie Aqila will never forget to help me out with what I have missed out in class.Thank you my lovelies.Yet my sickness is on and off.Just recently I have a huge pain on the stomach till i cant get out of bed.Eventhough I still have my medication,Im still sick.Baby was so worried about me,hearing me crying on the phone alone at home we came and surprise me to look after me before he went for his Studio-Wu class.Thank you for being there for me Baby.Oh not to forget baby also came to visit me and sent my assignment when I was on MC.Thank you again.Now , Im all good I think I am back in school and catching up with the lesson.Phew.

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As for this week,I have been staying at home to study and sometime when out to study with my babysista Nadyra,Iza,Aqila and their classmates.I have no regrets being with them.In the same school,same CCA,same Crew,same interest is just fun being around them.I love you,babysista!!

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As for today,baby came over to my crib early in the morning when I was still in bed.Thanks eh baby,I haven't bathe and still in my LALA LAND.ahaha.He fetch me and we headed to shop for my new phone.Then we headed to have our lunch and off to the macdonald near his crib to study.Thank you baby for teaching me Math.

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Alright,alright.I think thats enough.Its quite a long post.I will be back mugging for my SPE again and I wont be blogging much anymore.Till here then.Im waiting for baby's late night calls with me again.hehe.(cepat la KBL)

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Allah is in my heart.

pictures above are on 2nd may.

Friday 24 April 09 - CCA Recognition cum Speech Day

2009-04-26T17:04:00.006+08:00

cca recognititon day was a sad one for me and the rest of the seniors.All of us are stepping down especially Aircho and myself.Being the captain and the vice-captain in the Nutz Crew for the past years have been a great journey.Nevertheless ihave a great time during cca recognition.Both Aircho and myself bought soem appreaciation gifts for our new upcoming captains and our teachers.I given an extra gift to these speacial people in my life.Nadyra and Gico thank you for being the best and being so caring towards me and Iza and Aircho whom started with me since the start.Without Iza and Aircho still being here no one will know how we started all these hard journey.Thank you Nutz Crew.Its been great with all you guys in my life.

In the evening, we have our last performance for the seniors.Which is the Speech day.It was an awesome performance.No words can describe the whole theme of the dance item.Started small and look at where we stand now Nutz Crew.GOLD WITH HONOR!!

Thats all for now.2nd MAY 2009 come fast!!!!! :)

2009-04-23T20:40:00.005+08:00

CAN'T WAIT FOR 2ND MAY 2009!!!

(PICTURE IS THE CLUE)

WEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!

IM EXCITED!!

babylove

2009-04-07T20:59:00.010+08:00

atlast, i update my blog but this is just for a meantime.

dedicating this post to Mohammad Alif Rais a.k.a Aircho Artist.

No words can describe how much i love this hotty guy down here.

You meant everything to me, my love.

Love is really blind,

Love is describable,

Love is everything,

Love is lovely,

LOVE CANT BE REPLACE.

My love towards him is enormous.I cant get enough of him in a day.

All his funny jokes and laughter in class just brighten up my day. He will never failed to put a smile on my face when some things aint right. Tickling me,hugging me,kissing me,irritates me,sitting beside me everyday just makes my day. From inside class to dance practice to outings' together is just so sweeeeet.If theres a day i could have the entire world to myself and him i'll . . .(hehehe,for me to know & for u to find out)

THERE'S NO WORDS CAN DESCRIBE MY LOVE TO YOU AIRCHO ARTIST!

I LOVE YOU! :)

dedicating my blog song for you my dear.you should know the song.

i hope everything will be back as per normal again.

am truly sorry.i need you baby.

Labels : 29 months & still counting.

overdue pictures

2009-03-05T19:07:00.009+08:00

some pictures were taken using a polaroid camera where i cant post it and some were in my phones where i couldnt fine my usb cable to transfer it.hehe.so thats about it. :)

pictures@ NTU (impresso: freekzy nutz)
pictures @ MDIS / Y.P (slap performance) this was fun!!! lol

a new one

2009-03-01T01:48:00.002+08:00

blog song is specially dedicated to my baby-aircho artist.may we be bless from the god above.

a new month again.another obstacle need to overcome.alhamdullilah.happy 28th month to us and congratulation to freekzy nutz and abg faliq for clinching champion and 2nd place for the impresso competition.

labels: another one achieved.

updates

2009-02-22T23:45:00.004+08:00

alright.a quick update for today.i have not been using the internet for quite sometime so today is the time i got to touch my lappy.alright been busy plus recovering from my sickness this week.common test was'nt that bad.allhamdullilah.friday evening and saturday morning had a tiring practice for major syf.rushed down to mdis,dance competition after morning practice then head to y.p to watch abang faliq performance(singing).suppose to watch freekzy performance today at zhenghua cc but me and nadyra were late so we only catch to watch the rest of the bboy event.congrats to rsc for clinching 4th position and enemy ground clinching the top place.ouh ya,Fate,do take care of your lil finger.get well soon aite.freekzy me and nadyra went to have our dinner then we head around our area to catch a movie but there's no good movie so we decided to play para-para.that was the fun part for today.we can't stop laughing playing.ohkay.since yesterday freekzy have been making stupid lame jokes til i cant stop laughing.hahs.i had great time with them,seriously and i miss the time freekzy and lil nutz at genting together.ahah.memories.alright next week is a tight schedule for me and the nutzcrew.we'll be having practice the whole week til sunday.sheehs.that means i could'nt touch my lappy again.gosh.alright tomorrow is the start of the tight schedules.am too lazy to upload pictures.i'll upload it when am free again.

labels : laughter aint gona stop

overdue's pirtures.

2009-02-16T19:33:00.005+08:00

hmmm.

2009-02-16T16:44:00.004+08:00

ive just reached home from the clinic.since yesterday ive suffered a serious case of food poisoning.the doctor claimed that i have stomach and throat infection.how serious can that be huh?!(i think is because of the seafood i ate on friday night). well i was send to the hospital yesterday but thank god i need not need to stay there.didnt went to school today.i need my rest,seriously.never in my life been absent from school.

as for my valentines day,it went just fine.im suppose to surprise aircho with BREAKOUT tickets but it was sold out.we decided to have our own way of valentines.never in my mind he would surprise me with a rose,how sweet.and i surprise him with his favourite chocalate and (____).ahaah.he should know.aircho bought his nike air force and i bought my adidas high cut and we ended the day by meeting up some of freekzy nutz,hetty,wewen,dbldee,aishah,wawa and her bf.not to forget,thank you baby for bringing me to the famous chicken rice shop that ive been wanting to go.(:love ya.

(not much pictures taken as aircho forgotten to bring the memory card for the camera)

labels : undescribe

weekends

2009-02-08T23:30:00.004+08:00

weekends was alright.but im not myself today as i am sick for almost 2weeks now.haiz.saturday was spent with lil dope and nadyra.we did not have a proper planning.we just roam around town then head home.

today went to watch freekzy nutz competition held at bishan,junction 8.i went there alone because of some personal reason's.met up with some dancer's that i've not been seeing,there.as usual,freekzy and abang faliq gotten into the finals,congratulation to them all.headed to town to have our dinner and headed home then.alright i am too dead sick right now.i'll end the post now.

(pictures will be upload soon,both last weekends and this week)

to lil dope : hey beb,im gald to have you too.(:

labels : sick

a day to remember

2009-02-01T21:54:00.005+08:00

HAPPY BELATED 17TH BIRTHDAY TO THIS DOPE GIRL,DEERANAE.HOPE YOU BE BLESS ALWAYS. XD

weekends was spent wisely.i really had fun yesterday and today.

saturday was spent with lil dope,deeranae,nadyllique and ladynette.we had fun laughing,chatting and a mini shopping.not forgetting we surprised deeranae for her belated birthday,she did'nt see it coming.oh yeah2.ahah.like i said(NALA).haha.the day was spent just nice.all those laughter really makes my day!! thanks beb.lets go out again yeah.NAAALLAAA.ahah.

(pictures will be upload soon nadyra upload it at her blog)

HAPPY 27MONTH TO BABY&AIRCHO.LOVE YOU. (:

today was unplanned.aircho called me up to catch a movie.we watch brides war.ain't that bad for a comedy show.went home straight after the show cos tomorrow is a school day and we didnt get a bite cos aircho is on diet.ahah.all the best for your diet-ing love.XD may we be bless by god in our relationship.amin.love ya.

labels: days of happiness

patience

2009-01-29T22:14:00.003+08:00

TO BITCHES AND PLAYAS OUT THERE SERIOUSLY GET A LIFE,PLEASE.AS TOLD BY MY COUSIN, GET YOUR OWN NIGGA,BITCH,N YOU'D GET FREE FLOW OF HIS STICK.PLAYA'S WILL ALWAYS BE PLAYA'S.AHAHS.GET YOUR OWN STICK BITCH!

labels : *get a life asses*

January 27,2009 : catching up.

2009-01-28T00:00:00.010+08:00

atlast,i've decided to make my blog shown to public.past years i've been making it private,which is not these particular blog.my special thanks goes to this particular person whom have been helping me be it physically or mentally.you should know who you are.i owe you one :)

CNY is a great time for me to relax myself for a moment.i've been out since friday til today.because of those lack of rest,i mean sleep, i've caught a fever.the temperature its kinda bad but yet i went out to kill boredem.not only killing my boredem but meeting this nigga that i miss most.something occur between me and that nigga.well,i dont want to elaborate more down here.rather keep it confidential.i should be in bed by now,but those medication that i've took doesnt help me to rest well,yet making me feel more alive.haahs.alright,till here.i have to go to the other blog to update also but more in details.sheesh.